My day felt very, very long. My feet hurt too, dammit. *snaps fingers* Where is my pool boy to rub my feet and make me martinis? This isn't what I ordered!

anyway, since I haven't the brain to organize an actual post about anything I'll jot down the random thoughts I had today - at least the ones I remember...

People are the sum of their experiences and how their personality reacts to those experiences. It is a matter of choice how each person decides to treat others around them in spite of, or because of, those experiences.

In the end people are just people. In the end no one is any better, or any worse than you are.

I do not believe in boredom. Nor do I believe in "I can't". "I can't" implies a certain amount of "I won't" or simply fear of either the unknown or failure. (I may be forced to amend this, but hey... i did say these were random.) I mean if a guy with no arms can learn to play the guitar then nothing is impossible.

The world still feels uneven beneath my feet.

Labels: bring me cheese or die, random, think

Grrr. You know, sometimes people piss me off more than usual. This weekend seems to be one of them. My interior monologue (heh... I almost left it saying 'dialogue') is really quite nasty right now.

Dear people who come to the front door at 3am with their very drunk friends. When you realize that you've locked yourself out, do not think it's a good idea to buzz random people in the off chance that someone will believe you actually belong in this building and let you in. Do not throw a hissy fit when no one complies and for god's sake, take your screaming matches elsewhere. Do not try to force the door, or slam your weaselly little body into it on the off chance it'll pop open. Of course I'm going to come out on the deck and tell you to shut the fuck up and/or DIAF. Did you enjoy watching me talk to the cops? I certainly hope so, because I certainly did. However, I did not enjoy the occasion that prompted me to do so in the first place. Should I see your sober face anywhere in public I shall smile sweetly knowing that you and your little pissant friends spent a night in the drunk tank. I hope you got to be someone's bitch. Oh, and just fyi, the world does not revolve around you.

Bummer, eh? /rant

Woke up late this morning and was in a cranky mood (hrm, wonder why), so I really accomplished almost nothing save the removal of garbage and the cleaning of a toilet So I'm feeling crankier because I was such a lazy bones, but then I feel like I end up doing ... *breathes in* You know it's the same old shit. Again. I fucking hate pms when I'm already feeling like dirt, because it really does nothing to improve the situation, it my mental state.

I'm going back to my book. It's safer for everyone.

listening to: R.O.D theme song
watching: R.O.D 21 - Dream or Die
reading: Breath and Bone - Carol Berg
eating: guacamole
craving: a foot rub
weather: muggy
word count: nada
word of the day: flagrant
feeling: PMS-y
headspace: Jinbo-Cho

Labels: bring me cheese or die, DIAF, rant, SSDD

I'm back!

And I did, in fact, wear pants. In a panic on Friday night I hauled out the pile of clothes I'd dubbed too-skinny-to-wear about 6 months ago and tried them all on. Granted some of them will never fit and went into a newly designated Sally-Ann box but I found one that didn't turn my butt into warring hippos under a blanket. I exaggerate, but hey.

I met the Amazing Lindsie (from here on in referred to as AL - but only because it's more fun to say than SL, which is what Super Lindsie would produce.) on the bus at just after 7am. We had a breakfast of apples and granola bars in the ferry terminal and spent the ferry trip playing hide and seek with the sun. The Sun kept winning and I for one, am not complaining. It was a beautiful weekend - still is. The sun is delicious and not an hour ago I ventured outside in... you'll never guess! SHORTS! and a TANK TOP! Omg, you heard me right. Oh, and I wasn't cold AT ALL. Hoorah!

The first day we dropped our backpacks at the hotel and explored Robson street and surrounds, ostensibly so that I could buy some more PANTS, but I did not have much success, though I found a dress in Esprit that I /drooled on. AL bought some yummy linen short pants. We ate lunch in a pub that was under the Central Library where I ate a hamburger that cured my hamburger craving for the next six months. And that is no mean feat imo. We then procured some groceries for our dinner and then decided on a movie for the evening's entertainment. We went and saw Narnia: Prince Caspian.

Next day we bussed all the way out to UBC and we found the MLIS building, poked around in the libraries, one of which was so hot I nearly died. (Again, I exaggerate, but still, I felt like my eyeballs were going to shrivel up if I spent much longer in there. Much like how this apartment feels atm... phew). And then we decided to check out Daiso. OMFG. The Whirlwind did say that there was everything there, and I didn't believe her. I should have. There was everything, and every last thing was 2$. I kid you not. I uh... spent a few bucks there. >.> But, it was stuff I needed. (Yes. I did need new notebooks thankyouverymuch. I always do!) Anyway, we lunched at an ABC, which I doubt I will repeat, then we went back to our hotel and napped, ate our groceries and watched 'Fun with Dick and Jane' before we konked out.

Today we took our time getting ready and left by nine. I got home at about quarter after one, which is nice. I'm almost done my laundry. AND I have my pants back. I also felt a little adventurous with the cooking and I've managed - I think - to make this alfredo sauce from scratch. Yum.

Anyway, I have a good feeling about UBC. It's a pretty campus and I think the bit of exploring we did has helped me get oriented enough that if/when I finally go I won't get totally freaked out. My logical brain and my emotional one are having an arm wrestle about it - and a few other things right now, but since I'm sure no one really wants to read about my woe-is-me-ing, I'll skip that part.

Oh and omg the people. I forget that because Van is so much larger there are so many more people, all with somewhere to go. And sometimes in a freaking hurry I can't help but be appreciative of the amount of work that has gone into the transit system there. Bus, skytrain and seabus all shuttling people to and fro, bikes and cars whizzing all over the place and there was no way I'd cross a road without a crosswalk the way I do here. Most of the women I saw that were around my age needed to eat one of those hamburgers I ate on Friday - and not regurgitate it afterwards. I've never seen so many skinny little things in my life. I felt like I could break them like twigs. Either the city was sucking the life out of them or they actually wanted to look that rail-thin. Or gaunt, or skeletal in some cases. *shivers* Ok, granted once upon a time I was that thin, but I know I wasn't eating like I should and now that I've gained a whole tonne and then lost enough to finally be happy with my figure (hello curves) I think I'm right in saying that unless they have amazing metabolisms, there's something going on. Eat something! Either that or stop stressing it all down the drain.

I saw a sign as we were entering downtown that said "Stand for nothing, fall for anything." Hehehe!

listening to: The Crystal Method - High and Low
drinking: iced tea, with lots of ice
eating: chicken fettucini alfredo
reading: Mendoza in Hollywood - Kage Baker
word count: you're looking at it
word of the day: ephemeral
feeling: half-lucid
headspace: somewhere between

Labels: bring me cheese or die, fun times

I had a *charming* customer today. I shall refrain from venting here because I seem to do that an awful lot, but I will say that he was an angry little man who wanted to take his frustration out on someone and that someone just happened to be me. Me in a not-so-great mood to start with thankyouverymuch. I took some joy in watching the Whirlwind step up to the plate and whip his ass. Normally I would not have had an issue, but as it seemed a direct and unexpected personal attack out of left field I was not in a good position to pull my brain together and fry him like he deserved. I was not in a diplomatic frame of mind either, so it's probably good that I didn't open my mouth before the Whirlwind did.

J has this interesting tendency to say he will do something and then delegate it to others. I find myself picking up the slack or making excuses because it's embarrassing that my boyfriend doesn't keep his word.

However on a good note, he brought me cheese. And red peppers. I love cheese.

In other news from my internet-junkie wanderings: Yes.

listening to: Kosheen - Crawling
reading: Sisters of the Raven - Barbara Hambly
eating: cheese
word of the day: asshat
project of the day: laundry, dishes
feeling: apathetic
headspace: an avenue of plum trees in bloom

Labels: argh, bring me cheese or die, DIAF

This weekend was very good. I got to spend some time with all of my favourite people. Nomes and I spent most of Saturdays talking and walking... think I tired her out tho. Did you sleep Nomes? At least a little until you were so rudely awakened by the SO?

And most importantly today: Happy Birthday Two-Shot! Weee!

My cats are fatter. Kitten has her ruff back, but I think she's stressing out because she's losing hair at an alarming rate. I want them back dammit. You never really realize how much they run your life until they're absent. I miss my furballs - they both slept with me, but the kitten spent more time snuggling than Cinder, which is unusual, so I think she really misses me. It was nice to have the purrs so close.

Ok, here's something for old times sake... ok scratch that, it's because I felt like it and I'm grumpy so go with it or I might bite you. Cheers.

A) Four jobs I have had in my life (other than current job):
>Kennel, where I got to walk dogs, groom dogs, train dogs and shovel shit
>Ladies Wear, where I learned how to sell ice to a penguin
>A Nanny for what turned out to be a stripper
>Customer service rep, where I got to sit in a cubicle and get abused by Americans all day

B.) Four movies I would watch over and over:
>Constantine
>The Fifth Element
>Stigmata
>Kingdom of Heaven
>Serenity
(there are more...)

C.) Four places I have lived
>on a farm
>on a boat
>in a trailer
>in a house

D.) Four TV shows that I watch
>Jericho
>Alias
>Firefly
>Heroes

E.) Four places I have been:
>England
>France
>Belgium
>Greece

F.) People who e-mail me (regularly):
>My mother
>Nomes
>Kerry
>the spam monster

G.) Four of my favourite foods:
>fresh fruit
>fresh veggies
>cheese
>fresh bread (especially raisin bread)

H.) Four places I would rather be right now:
>a beach
>a mountaintop
>in bed
>Greece

J.) Four Things I am looking forward to this year:
>summer
>wearing dresses
>finishing something
>a haircut

K.) Four favourite authors:
>Jacqueline Carey
>Caitlin R. Kiernan
>Neal Gaiman
>Charles de Lint

listening to: computer hum
eating: easter jellybean overdose
today's project: laundry (check!)
pet peeve of the day: colds
word of the day: mesozoic
word count: *laughs hysterically*
reading: Oryx and Crake - Margaret Atwood
craving: more sleep
feeling: muzzy and sick
headspace: jumbled... the secretary has pulled a bunch of old files and is attempting to reorder them in light of new information.

Labels: bring me cheese or die, meme hell